Tuesday, February 12, 2013

How to be Strong

Last Friday I had yet another physical therapy appointment for my shoulder.

I should be farther along with my treatment, but even though I said I would be compliant with my work, I haven't been.  Not religiously.

It's vicious cycle - it makes me sore to do it, but I'm sore in a different way if I don't.

There are great signs of improvement though - the therapist says my strength is almost back to normal.  I'm not sure how he knows this since he never saw me when I was normal, but I'm sure there are benchmarks to go against.

My range of motion is better too. Not all there, but I don't expect it to be.  I'm old.

I'm feeling the PT too.  I'm working with only 1-8 pound weights, but I'm feeling it as if I were lifting 45.  I. Am. Sore.

Part is just lack of me being able to go to a weight room, though I suppose I can go - but would I look foolish lifting 1-8 pound weights.  I always seemed to be on the weaker side of that room when I was lifting 45-60.  Now I'd just look like a 98 lb weakling.

As it is, I'm not sure I'll be doing any more benching, no squats or nothing that raises weight over my head - or that works my shoulder in that upward way.

I can now go back to curls, so that's something. I feel like my arms have gotten so flabby and no longer defined. I hate that.

Yes, I'm vain - I totally get that.  But when you cringe in pain as you try to reach your back to wash it in the shower, your priorities change a little - until you see yourself in the mirror.  Then vanity is staring you right back.

Or it is stating back at me.  I'm shallow.  I get it.

It sounds like one or two more appointments and I'll be discharged and the next one isn't even for another month - so I'll try to be more diligent about the therapy I'm supposed to do at home.

Honestly, I'd be ok with the shoulder no longer hurting just so I can do better at yoga.

Song by:  Rosanne Cash


anne marie in philly said...

you can buy hand weights in those sizes from a sporting goods store to use at home. start small; I started with 3s and am now doing 10s and 12s; 15s are too heavy yet.

doing something is better than doing nothing.

Anonymous said...

How would having sex with little boys help your shoulder?

Erik Rubright said...

Maybe they could just swap your bad parts out with robot parts. That would be... awesome!