Honestly, we are almost done with the first third of 2022 and I have not taken one fucking day off.
This explains my my overall malaise and being run down on my "time off", and why I think I'm being totally unfocused at work.
I actually like my job and the folks with whom I work, but there are times lately where I just don't care or put forth my usual effort. I don't think the not taking time off thing is a coincidence with the other stuff.
The joke is - it's so hard to take time off due what you are forced to come back to in terms of emails and unfinished projects. I do love how my boss is living this right now. He took off four days for a wedding and two days at a conference - not in a row. One of my counterparts is gone and my boss is filling in while he hires. ....and he cannot keep up.
I should my mention, my counterpart had about 75% less staff than I do. He had maybe 5-6 practice sites. Me? 28. I think my boss is figuring out my life better now, but it's of little comfort.
Should 710 and I not find a long weekend - and soon - then I'm taking off 3-4 days just to do nothing. My problem is; if I'm at a staycation, I'll log in to work. That is the opposite of my goal.
I think the gym has helped in terms of my mental health. And my physical stuff too. I am possibly going to weigh myself tomorrow, as it should put me at the 4 week mark of my getting back to the gym. I've only missed three days in that time. Mondays are difficult for me, due to a 07:00 meeting I have, and for which I have to prep on the morning of. I could go after work, but I know I won't. And I'm sure the place has a very different vibe than the 05:00 time.
I've been trying to do so much more self-care this year, but I'm failing in the biggest way, and the most obvious one as well.
The irony is: I am such an advocate for me 220+ folks on not burning out, clearly I can't take my own advice.
Song by: Green Day