Saturday, March 26, 2011
Sleep Keeps Me Awake
I wonder what's like to sleep for what the medical industry likes to call the recommended amount?
The number of hours is something like eight. You can cut that in about half for me. Maybe a little more. ....and not in a row.
This last week has been especially bad for me.....sleep-wise. Oh, I can still fall asleep at the drop of a hat, which has always been my M.O., it's just that I can't stay asleep.
Bedtime seems to be getting later and later. It's not that I'm not tired, it's just that I like to think that if I go to bed later, I'll sleep later. Yeahhhhh.....that's not working.
The dreams have been heavy, but forgettable. The anxiety attacks however are very real.
I try to thwart both of those things with reading my book and/or doing a crossword right before lights out. Normally it helps, but not lately. Not this last week or two.
I should be way more exhausted than I am. For the decade and a half of my pseudo-sleepless nights I've adapted well - at least for the most part. This last week, not so much.
Sleepy-time drugs are not my thing, at least in theory. I have never used them and don't really care to start. I'm ok with 5-6 hours of sleep, even if interrupted. It's worked for me the since the turn of the 21st century. But less than that and waking up with a thumping heart beat and sweating is pushing my limits.
I will get it under control. It's just a phase.
Song by: Michelle Shocked