BLOBBY'S BLOG

Unemployment Sucks

Week two of unemployment isn't really working for me (no pun intended). I am such the creature of habit - or was - that it is a little scary not to know what to do with my time. So in turn I do nothing.

First off, and perhaps it is TMI, but I have only achieved about a 50% success rate at showering since my last day at the office. Used to be, I was out of the shower by 5:30 a.m. I haven't really been going anywhere, so my lack-of-thought-process has been 'why bother'. And that whole thing of never being able to sleep past 5:00 a.m.? Out the window. I've been getting my sorry ass out of bed at 7:00-7:30 a.m. Granted, I'm usually awake now between 2:30-4:00 a.m., just lying there petting Tovah. Because if I look remotely alive and/or awake, she's right there wanting pets and yelling at me. Who am I to tell her 'no'?

I'm letting myself mope just a little while longer. I really didn't even think I'd mope at all - but that is turning out to be a fallacy. Maybe 'mope' is the wrong word. I'm being lazy. I need to be more proactive about this whole job search thing. And my posting a few weeks ago on getting a hobby? I guess I should be a little more serious about it.

Everyone who has gone through this keeps telling me just to enjoy this time and to make the most of it. Maybe that will kick in. So far it hasn't even shown it's face.

Right now, I just keep hearing Laurie Anderson's 'White Lily' in my head: Days go by.....endlessly....endlessly pulling you....into the future.