I Think I'm Paranoid

During my last psychiatrist visit, earlier this week, I started the session by asking my shrink, "do paranoid people know they're paranoid?" 

I thought it a reasonable question like in the Sixth Sense that dead people don't know they're dead. Or in reality, it you have a mental illness, are you aware enough to know you do? 

The questions semi-stems from a post a while ago here when I was ranting and railing about the government and I called myself 'paranoid or an alarmist'.  What I actually said was that my readers probably think I am..........which got me thinking. 

Well, which got me overthinking. 

Which is a problem for me. A big one. 

Anyway, the answer wasn't that clear cut, but some do, some don't. I'm sure there are moments of lucidity where they recognize behaviour, but if they put two and two together, who knows. 

I was told I did not have any psychosis. Or he didn't see that in me. So......maybe? 

His conclusion was that I was spiraling, which is accurate (see: overthinking). My problem (well, one of them) was he didn't give me any coping mechanisms to avoid that or get out of it in a more real time scenario. 

I bring this all up because I'm back at square one today (well, yesterday, but I can guarantee you it will continue today).

The post where I deemed you deeming me 'paranoid' was one of ICE getting $750 BILLION dollars and me calling them the SS - and truly believing this is where we are. 

I'm thinking I'm less paranoid and back the fatalist that I've always called myself. As it turns out, I might be afraid of fatality. 

J. F. C. 

Folks - this is what was called the Hitler Youth. 

Is called. Present tense. 

I'm sorry - this is all out in the open for everyone to see. Granted, most people are morons and either didn't learn this the first time, or retain it should they have been taught it at all, but fuck!

I'm not even touching the child labor laws, which are on the way out anyhow. I don't ever want to hear about gays 'grooming' kids. These guys are grooming killers. 

I did roll my eyes at Dean Cain becoming an "honorary' ICE agent.  FFS - there is no way he's getting Lois & Clark residuals. And doubtful he could get off his shift at Long John Silvers to actually be an ICE agent. But 'honorary' can't pay anything. 

I do gotta say, the menu item on the left bar in Spanish is just fucking hilarious to me. Though I applaud anyone in the Hispanic community going to this site to read what is going to happen to them. 

Honestly, I think it was better when I thought you thought I was paranoid. 

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