BLOBBY: SO VERY FIRED
There is a line in Angels in America which I love: "you don't intuit well at all". It is a word I like and one rarely sees in that form.
(Un)fortunately, much of the time I do intuit well. Let's take yesterday's post by chance (feel free to read it first if you'd like to catch-up)
2p came around. I walked into the appointed conference room w/my boss and a Human Resources rep. Even before a word was spoken, I knew of my sealed fate. But the first words were a doozy - and uttered by me: "Fuck! This can't be good!". Technically, I was not fired. My position was eliminated. I was "outplaced". Call it whatever you fuckin' want.
I mean, I knew it was coming - didn't I? Many many people tried to tell me I was on the wrong track. They weren't being mean - just supportive. I appreciate that too. I flashed back 14 yrs (!!!) or so to when many of those same people tried to reassure me that the shadow on my xray was not a tumor. They almost had me believe it too. But my worse case scenario mind actually got me to a place mentally that when it was confirmed to be a tumor, I was well prepared. Today was a lot like that.
As predicted, it was not performance related but a consolidation of resources. Why me? I don't know - there was no real point in asking. The decision was made and the severance package made up.
It's a decent enough of one. One that will keep me in ok shape at least until March 2007 for pay and benefits.....and beyond that if I indeed need unemployment.
I am still hoping not to need the severance package, let alone the unemployment lines. The other job I mentioned, for which I am interviewing, I'm still in the running and a viable candidate. I even went to the person I interviewed w/and would report to, so that I could update her on my situation. Some might think that was a mistake - but I think it was more important that she hear it from me and not via a grapevine. I was on an adrenaline rush so I figured do it before chickening out. I tied it back to my interview when she asked if I was worried about reorganization in my current area. I answered at that time that while I thought eventually it would happen - it was not the reason for my interest in the job I was interviewing for....and that IS the truth. Both my admin. boss and my doc. boss said they'd talk me up for any position I was considering.
So beginning in October (yes, I'm gainfully employed until near end of Sept), I can get a lot more bike riding in - and will have lots and lots of time to work on my blog. I know - you shiver with anticip.............................(SAY IT!)............ation!