BLOBBY'S BLOG

THE DAY AFTER

So - how am I doing after Thursday's big news? Am I reeling? The answer is yes and no.

I have never been out of work before. Not really. When we moved to Cleveland 10yrs ago, I quit my job to be with Denton. From my last day of work to my next job, it was six weeks. That included looking for employment, interviewing and pre-employment health screenings. I've never been 'let go'.

I decided not to go into work yesterday. On one hand, why bother? On another, I want to remain in good standing, as I was trying to move positions anyway. I don't want to look like some bitter guy....but I do have about 70 hrs over the maximum of Paid Time Off. I'd lose it at the end of the year if I had my old job or the new one. I will definitely lose those 70s hrs at the end of September if I don't get another job in the same organization.

So yesterday was a bit trying. There was an army of workers doing painting and woodwork. The main house was uninhabitable. We (including the cat) took refuge in Denton's office. At some points in my life I thought I might be able to last in prison. It turns out I wouldn't make it a day. And prison doesn't even have wireless access. I was stir-crazy. Is this how it will be after there are no more office days?

I flash on things where I am like "oh, I should be at work." Then it's "no, I don't have a job".....but I actually do. At least for another month. I fret about being broke - but I'll pretty much have full pay well into next year.

David called yesterday after reading my blog. I should take heed from his experiences. He is a man who knows about job transition. G-d does he know. Don't even ask what his new dream job would be. He can tell you himself. He WILL tell you himself. It's safe to say we don't have the same career aspirations.

I do agree w/David that is time for self-reflection. What DO I want to be when I grow up? Does what we do really define us? Why do all my sentences seem like I'm Carrie Bradshaw writing her crappy little column?

David thinks I have a good book in me. He believes I'm bitter enough, sarcastic enough and funny enough to pull it off. He also says the last few entries of this blog have been kicked up a notch. Let's see....how did he phrase it? Something to the effect that: 'it was a like a sad little tv show that finally got a good storyline'. He wasn't being rude and I couldn't help but laugh. Do I take the subtitle of 'stuff and nonsense' off the header?

I do believe my biggest challenge will be these upcoming three and one-half weeks. I'll close-up some of what I'm working on and make sure not to take anything else on at all. That can be the problem of the administrator to which they are transitioning my work. Of course, I'll be helpful, but why take on bigger pieces they'd eventually be responsible for anyway?

I will use up as much of the now 63 hrs of PTO that I have in overage while continuing my quest for the job I really wanted. If that doesn't come to fruition, I have short term non-work goals: my parent's 50th. maybe a trip. lots of house stuff.

Did I mention that I will have full access to an executive search firm who will work w/me at no cost to me? So, I have that going for me - along w/a great support system of friends and family. Well, some family. I will wait to break this news depending on the next week or so, after seeing how the my next interview turns-out.