Well, I do have anxiety. Have had it. Do have it. And the last few days have been at a higher level.
...and man do I have a lot of songs with 'anxiety' in, or as, the title.
It's just been one of those weeks where things aren't great. And that happens. How I deal with it is what has changed - or maybe how I don't deal with it.
Running helps, but that is a finite amount of time, as I am not the Six Million Dollar Man.
I think part of my state is that by occupation I've learned to be a fixer. I jump to the solution process whether asked or not. But that isn't working for me now - outside of work. At least sometimes. Frustration gets added to my already present anxiety which then gets kicked up a few notches by the frustration.
I know this peaks and ebbs, but I'm not enjoying this peak. I'm unfocused. I'm moody (well.....moodier) and it is exhausting masking the traits when I'm not at home.
This will pass......or at least lessen. I could call my doc, but I'm seeing him in a week, so right now I'm just riding it out.
....well, I guess I did have something about which to write - and it had nothing to do with the fucking Reflecting Pool.
Song by: Jason Isbell + the 400 Unit
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